The D word

I am divorced, well actually I am Married (Very happily I must say) but for anyone who has gotten a divorce, it leaves an imprint on you. Forever you will carry around this "scarlet D". I guess it is what you take from the experience that can change how you wear it. For me it is little more than a water mark left to remind me of the things I won't ever do again and the ways that I will never again let myself be treated. As I said I am re-married and  I now sleep with the love of my life every night. We sleep intertwined and only move to shift and reorient the position of our spoons. This man reads me poetry and makes my heart swoon. He also frustrates me, pushes me and encourages me to step outside of my comfort zone. My husband is not perfect but he is most certainly perfect for me. He is witty, loving, intelligent, strong, inspiring, and a wonderful father too. He pushes me to be the very best version of myself and he believed in me when I felt worthless. When we do get into it, and argument ensues, we work through it quickly and somehow our bond only seems to strengthen. It was my faith, my belief in a man like this, in a partnership, a loving passionate relationship that allowed me to finally leave the unhealthy, unfulfilling, relationship and though the path was the hardest of my life it was and is still the most fulfilling. After I left, I grew to realized that the love for myself and my truth should have been what empowered me. In the past couple of years my skirts have become longer, my expectations higher, my limits less and my belief in the idea that anything is possible is not only strong but it's being tested as we speak. There are many more changes to come as I leave behind the large breasted, ditzy persona of years past. The woman I am, the soul which resides in me has leapt and no matter how things turn out I am certain that I am all the better for it.